Like every novel, this blog deserves a Preface too.
I have a lot of reasons for my hiatus that I could not describe by words. But as you'll read my posts later, you'll know why. Also, I have a lot of reasons for this writing comeback. One of them, is for me to mark down my journey so that I can re-read it one day when I turn old and grey. Some have read my blog since I was 14, some just don't. Because we may bumped into when we get into college, on instagram or any other ways, you name it. and For that, Thank you for being part of my life. You're the colours to my canvas, that's why I write. To capture moments with you.
If you're asking for my old posts ; I should say it is more decent for me to keep it for myself only. Like ehm you know what I mean. *smirk* In other words, I would like to start a new life. A good one. Wait. A BETTER one.
Hence, I would like to do some improvising here. First, for those who knew my writing style, I really, really love writing LONG! or there will be LOTS of photos, even the littlest pettiest thing! Oh Allah! Make me away from doing those. This time, I would like to write it short and on point with less photos. I learned a lot that not everything you should post and share. If its worth sharing that gives benefit to ALL, then it's worth writing and uploading it. Second, I will not write the monthly life events, superficially and in chronological order like I used to. Because I've change. I'm a reserved person now. I chose to be less expressive about how I feel, not even in what I favourite in Twitter. (But if I did, just assume that I have glucose rush!) I don't want to just talk about myself, where I go, what I do. But I want to write the wisdoms behind everything happen. The silver lining at every timing. The different angle perspective when looking things. So that when reading it, at least we get something to BOOST us up. Well, I am not perfect. and I mean it. Trust me, I will slip and make mistakes. But I will always TRY my best, inshaAllah May Allah make us amongst the best people!
Third, in conjunction to the hiccups I might portray, I will prep you the fact that I will coincidentally make grammatical errors, even Manglish! haha because I usually type fast, emotionally and spiritually fired up! So, please accept my apology in advance! But if you're annoyed with that, I am welcoming any corrections from you. Even any reminders are welcome with open arms. Know that my ultimate purpose here is TO BE BETTER.
So the preface about me, briefly ;
The eldest of 9 siblings. The difference between me and my last sister is 16 years old! The 3rd one has return to her Creator due to His immensely love for her so that she'll be never in intussusception pain again :') Al Fatihah to our Nur Sabrina Binti A. Zailani (1997-1999), We miss you dearly!
I was raised in 2 big families. Meaning when I get married, I will have 3 families! #Blessed
My Alma Mater was :
1) Tunasari Pre-School Center , KK
2) SRK St. Francis Convent, KK
3) SMK Agama KK
4) SM Agama Persekutuan Kajang, Selangor (for a month only, hehe)
So if there's anyone that used to be in the same class or same school with me, please let me know. I wish to reunite! and If there's my teachers out there reading this, know that without you I wouldn't be who I am today (again still lot to improve although it sounds nerdy hehe) so I asked Allah to grant you blessings you've never imagine, aamiin!
and currently, All Praise to The Most Merciful Most Caring, I am pursuing my degree in Doctor of Medicine at Lincoln University College (2015-2020) Please make du'aa that my friends and I pass all professional exams with ease and graduate on time to serve you! Aamin!
Talking about my interest is undoubtly revolves around Arts. But should you put this in mind, Interest doesn't mean I am pro in it. Not at all. So primarily, I love any aspects of creating Arts ; doodling, anatomically drawing, designing and videographing. Even martial arts once in Karate. But quitted long time ago. Physically I may not show the fun side of myself to most people. So the next Arts I like is, singing and its partner, d*ncing, because it is one of the way to channel my stress by pitching out my contralto, mezzo-sopra and let the intense muscle to workout burning the calories. No, I am not a fan of the term 'thin-physique'. Thus, the next interest is eating like every women does! Moving on to sports, I hope dancing will be counted in the same category too but okay no worries now I love Ice Skating. I also went some futsal trainings for the sake of representing our faculty in MIVG (can that be counted too? haha) and also hiking. Although people said that I doesn't suit the ungraceful activity because I look soft but hey I AM VERY COMPETITIVE, at heart. When others say I can't, I will prove I CAN.
Plus, I really love linguistics. It is the voice of my heart. Sometimes, words are left unspoken, and so I start writing. Maybe randomly on my instastories and tweets. But it has half life too. Thus, blog in my two cents is the best alternative, being more organized and I can refer it back whenever I want. If there's a way to de-clutter, untangle or arrange the ideas in my mind, it would be here, my blog.
Two fav words that become my principe in life ; 1) Balance - like homeostasis in the body & like skating on the ice. Having knowledge should be compliment with having good akhlaq. If one doesn't behave good no matter how smart they are, it shows that the knowledge they have doesn't benefitted them at all. It only feeds the exam scores but not the heart. Just like when we couldn't maintain the homeostasis in body, we will fall sick. If we didn't balance ourselves on the ice blade, we will fall and break our bone. 2) Modesty : Nothing too little or too much. No matter in how we eat, how we dress and how we speak even how we thought of others. Don't be too much in pride like the tall sky and be too low planted in the ground that people could step on you. Know how to be down to earth as a wise slave of Allah.
Two fav words that become my principe in life ; 1) Balance - like homeostasis in the body & like skating on the ice. Having knowledge should be compliment with having good akhlaq. If one doesn't behave good no matter how smart they are, it shows that the knowledge they have doesn't benefitted them at all. It only feeds the exam scores but not the heart. Just like when we couldn't maintain the homeostasis in body, we will fall sick. If we didn't balance ourselves on the ice blade, we will fall and break our bone. 2) Modesty : Nothing too little or too much. No matter in how we eat, how we dress and how we speak even how we thought of others. Don't be too much in pride like the tall sky and be too low planted in the ground that people could step on you. Know how to be down to earth as a wise slave of Allah.
This leads to the most profound blessing I found this year which is my Interest towards learning the Book of Allah. Not merely about reciting it. But to understand the meaning of each Arabic words ; why it was arranged in that particular order, in that particular time, what is the story behind every lines and surah. MashaAllah my heart would explode everytime Allah eases to understand it. I get chills all the time. and this, where all my turning points begin. This, is why I comeback writing. I will regret my whole life if I didn't share the silver linings I met during my breaking points. I may couldn't treat a patient yet, but with the will I have for now, I wish to help and enlighten the very medicine to all brokenhearted people or whoever in need, through this magical lines in Qur'an. InshaAllah, please pray for my ease in writing, will you?
With that, Assalamualaikum and Hi, I'm Syuhada Zailani, wishing to inspire others as how I bumped into things that inspire me. Welcome to My Life Canvas and Be my Painting. em I mean, BE MY GUEST! Till then!
P/s : You can always drop your suggestion or question anonymously at sayat.me/syuhadazailani :)
